Why am I
crying now? My tears were overflowing and couldn’t stop. As if I had forgotten how to stop. I wonder how long it had been since I last cried. I feel like I’ve just been stabbed in the heart. I just like
throwing up. In the same feeling, like the time I failed. It hurts so much.
I am not a genius. I
finally understand what they meant back then. I put in so much effort. But,
that life doesn't exist anymore. I fell like my dream that I used to hold onto
so desperately is finished. And suddenly, I can't stop crying. I'm not talented.
I'm a looser. It looks as though I've lost my target. I've crawled my way up
from the bottom to the top, only to find out that I'm a looser. Why? I'm
exhausted from crying like that. I did my best. It was hard because I started
late and wasn't any good, but I blossomed. I thought it was useless, no matter
how many times I tried. I was pathetic, so I started to skip my lesson. However, no matter how many times I cried,
things never changed. I finally notice that I cried a lot. After that, I
promised myself that no matter what, I would never give up. I found that I didn’t
cry anymore. And I kept pushing myself. Suddenly, I realized that I had no reason
to be sad.
I cry
when I’m in despair. And I will cry when I’m happy and when I’ve tried my
hardest. No matter how
hopeless this all seems, no matter how pitiful I appear, I’ll keep going! Even if
I use up all of my strength, I will definitely do it for myself. No matter how
painful it is, I will endure it all. After this, I’m going to make a new story
with my new talent!
I've
realized the happiest time of my life. The moments of life only happens once. From
now on, I’ll appreciate every moment. This is my life and I’m enjoying my life....